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♫ Unwilling to take part in something improper, how could I predict things would turn out against my wishes? ♫
♫ The flower in center of my heart has withered, time cannot turn itself back. ♫
♫ My memories are whirling and twirling, the pain is only in the depths of my heart. ♫
♫ My only wish is to live without regrets, and fly far away with the flowers’ fragrance. ♫
♫ A bottle of rice wine, a body covered in dust and ashes. ♫
♫ Memories go back and forth, a life without regrets. ♫
♫ From spring to autumn, life comes and goes. Is it right to be vain? ♫
♫ I’m waiting for the flowers to return and bloom again, intoxicating me. ♫
♫ Sincerely hoping that my lifespan is no longer withering away ♫
♫ I’m waiting for the flowers to return and bloom again, intoxicating me. ♫
♫ Sincerely hoping that my lifespan is no longer withering away ♫
♫ I want to go back to savor the aftertaste of the wine again. ♫
♫ In my memories, life comes and goes. I realize clearly in my heart. ♫
♫ I want to go back to savor the aftertaste of the wine again. ♫
Ashes of Love
Episode 28
Once we go to the bottom of this river, all the answers will be revealed.
What did I do wrong?
Is it when Your Majesty used alcohol to bolster your courage a few days ago?
You originally planned to tell the truth after getting drunk, but ended up misspeaking.
Tell me.
If your wife was unhappy, how would you cheer her up?
That depends on how unhappy my wife is.
If it's an ordinary type of unhappiness, I'll buy her some new gifts.
If she's especially unhappy...
- What would you do? - Then, I'd buy even more expensive gifts.
Did you think the sacred healer is an ordinary woman?
I don't dare.
You may go now.
I will leave now.
Wait.
Help me find and bring
all those new and expensive gifts.
Yes, Your Majesty.
- Since that's the case, why do you have to be so heartless? - Liu Ying.
We are of different paths to begin with. Without me,
you'll live a better life.
[Liu Ying]
He said he carved this stroke by stroke.
He said he'll never forget about our memories together.
All lies!
[Liu Ying]
Your Highness has come back?
Kuang Lu,
do you still remember your childhood?
Of course.
Even the upsetting things?
There's nothing upsetting.
Even if I felt upset back then, when I think about it now,
it wasn't anything serious.
As immortals, being carefree and happy are the most important.
You should think about happier things.
If I could be like you, that would be good.
Did Your Highness remember something upsetting?
Who can live truly without worries?
Time is like prayer beads formed by one's worries. A person with a broad perspective
can count through these prayer beads with a smile.
Although there are setbacks, they can face it calmly.
so that they can face tomorrow optimistically.
Kuang Lu, are you willing to go with me
to Dongting River?
Dongting River?
I'm willing to follow Your Highness everywhere, even through death.
Such a beautiful place. Why did Your Highness think to come here?
This place might contain the past that I want to face.
You're not a red carp. You don't deserve to play with us.
Hurry and leave.
You monster with horns! Leave!
Leave! Leave the carp river.
Your Highness.
Your Highness!
Did you remember something?
[Li Pond]
Your Highness seems to be very familiar with Dongting River.
Let's go.
No! No, mother! No!
- Li'er. Li'er. - No!
Once I cut off this horns, you'll be like them.
No, mother! No!
Mother!
Mother, no! No!
Your Highness, are you okay?
- You must behave. - Mother...
No...
Are you okay?
I'm fine.
Cloud Dream Pond?
This is a pretty name.
[Li Pond]
Li'er.
Go play with your friends. Tell them
that you've always been a red carp. You're not a small dragon.
Go, go!
Your Highness!
What's wrong?
Cloud Dream Pond? Shouldn't it be Li Pond?
Your First Highness, you're finally here.
Please come in.
Benefactor, Night Deity is requesting an audience.
Lord Dongting above,
I'm paying you my respect.
Shangshen, why must you do such formal bowing?
I don't deserve it.
It's just right that I make that bow. You can bear to accept it.
I had questions in my heart, and I especially came to ask you.
I've been staying in this humble place for a long time and has been cut off from worldly affairs.
I'm afraid Your Highness is asking the wrong person.
Today, I was able to get hold of a painting.
I've long heard that Lord Dongting is knowledgeable of both past and present matters.
I especially came to ask Immortal to examine it with me.
Mother?
Can I be allowed to speak with Lord Dongting in private?
I don't recognize that painting. Sorry to disappoint you.
It's fine. Let me explain this painting to you then.
That Spiritual Fire Bead on the wrist of the lady in this painting
is an important treasure of the Heavenly Realm. There are only 2 of it in this world.
The other one was given by Heavenly Emperor to Heavenly Empress during their wedding.
It shows that the lady in this painting and the Heavenly Emperor
has a deep relationship.
Red Naga pearls are suddenly streaming down.
After this chance encounter, not separating from now on.
This hidden-end poem
pledges of an undying love and you can feel the deep emotion associated with it.
The two last words just happen to form the word 'Su Li'.
The area were the painter's name was inscribed bore the seal of Lord Beichen.
That was a pseudonym used by His Majesty Heavenly Emperor before.
He only calls himself that in front of people he's very close with.
There are only a few people who knows that.
Who is this person that was able to obtain a portrait personally made by the Heavenly Emperor,
which he signed using his pseudonym to show his deep affection?
Moreover, when Rat Immortal was in trial,
he repeatedly mentioned the name Su Li.
The reactions of Heavenly Emperor and Heavenly Empress were very abnormal.
Heavenly Empress easily gets jealous. What could be the relationship of this Immortal Su Li
with Heavenly Emperor, I'm sure that I don't need to explain it already.
I've been studying hard in Sacred Text Examining Pavilion since I was little.
All the famous people in the six realms and anecdotes,
I never forget them once I've read about them. Only the words 'Su Li'
seems familiar to me, but I can't recall of any impression about it.
Just like my childhood memories, no signs about them at all.
Looks like this Immortal Su Li
is an old acquaintance that has a deep relationship with me when I was little.
Someone deliberately erased my memories as a child.
Even this person, this name,
I also forgot all about it.
Shangshen is overthinking. Your ability to let your imagination roam
can really make people gasp in amazement.
Am I truly just overthinking and over-worrying?
The Heavenly Emperor's dragon clan practices fire elemental magic.
I am also of the dragon clan, yet I practice water elemental magic.
Based on that, I can infer that my mother is surely from a water clan.
The Immortal Su Li in this painting
is stepping on the waves to catch the fish. She's most likely from the water clan.
And the Naga pearls mentioned on the poem
is created from the tears of a merman.
Coincidentally, I also have a bracelet of them.
I've worn these since I was little and they have never left me.
Su Li has long been dead.
Shangshen, why must you insist on getting entangled with a dead person?
When Rat Immortal faced his death that day, it might looked as if he has planned it for a long time
to seek revenge for the dead Immortal Su Li.
On the outside, it also drove a wedge between the Emperor and Empress, created a huge blow to the Bird Tribe.
But in my opinion, this move lacked some methods and foresight.
In reality, it didn't really make any dent in the foundation of the Bird Tribe.
It's more like a 'cicada casting off its skin' move by sacrificing Rat Immortal when Heavenly Empress launched her attack.
Through thorough investigation, the only acceptable explanation is
Su Li isn't dead. Not only is she not dead,
she's hiding behind the curtain secretly growing her power.
She has plotted one operation to another.
Continuously waging war on the Heavenly Empress.
My son has finally grown up.
I've long heard that Night Deity is unrivaled in intelligence and strategies.
After seeing you today, the rumors are indeed true.
Just based on one painting, you're able to reel silk from cocoons
and make so many deductions.
Then, may I ask,
is everything that I said true?
Deductions are just deductions.
Night Deity is a royal descendant and is naturally Heavenly Emperor and Heavenly Empress—
Heavenly Empress is not my birth mother! It's only because I'm the eldest son of Heavenly Emperor,
that's why, she did all means to tightly control me in the palm of her hands.
These past thousands of years,
I never stopped thinking about my mother in my heart.
Shangshen, please just go back.
Since that fire in Li Pond,
your mother has already died.
I initially thought that mother loves me.
It's just that forced by the circumstances in the past, we got separated.
I was able to guess the person in this painting,
the meaning of the poem, but I wasn't able to guess
that the birth mother I've yearned for day and night
would retreat thirty miles from me just to maintain the peace.
Treat me as some stranger.
Is it really me who is being too sentimental
or it's mother that's being too heartless?
How can I not love you?
But what I'm walking on is a no retreat path.
When will conflicts end?
Shangshen, why then must you obstinately persist with this?
Mother now has a new child bringing you happiness.
I don't intend to pester you. I just want to personally ask you this question.
If I'm really a great embarrassment for you,
why then must you insist on giving birth to me?
If mother and Father Emperor love each other,
why then must you torment me and abandon me?
This was created by your Spiritual Fire Bead.
This is the scar left by you removing my scales before.
The scales on other parts of my body has regrown.
Only this reversed scale skin
is my lifetime wound,
my eternal pain. Everyone knows
that the reverse scales on a dragon mustn't be touched.
What kind of grudge and hatred
could have made mother do such ruthless thing to your own flesh and blood?
Stop saying it. I beg you to stop saying it!
Leave. Leave. Leave!
The person who gave birth to me,
the person who destroyed me, the person who abandoned me
are all my mother. I'm traumatized both physically and mentally.
Completely covered in wounds.
All these are thanks to my mother.
Today, I'll bow again
to repay my birth mother for giving birth to me.
I'm not your mother! You're not my son!
I'm not your mother...
Leave!
Quickly leave!
Li'er!
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Li'er!
Your Majesty doesn't like them?
Your Majesty doesn't like these, either?
Then, I will go find some more gifts.
I'll take these away for now.
Keep them here.
Cowardly and timid.
A turtle that likes to hide.
- What is this? - Your Majesty, this... This is a dragon scale.
Dragon scale?
This was given to me by an immortal who ranches deer.
Deity?
Male deity or female deity?
Male deity.
Dragons don't exist in this world. I think he tricked you.
No way! I saw it personally many times. It's definitely true.
- Saw it personally? - Yes.
How many times have you two met?
Why is Your Majesty so nervous?
I'm not nervous.
Your Majesty, if you don't believe me,
I can summon him.
Not allowed! In the future, you can't do that.
I've given my order already.
All necromancers in the entire nation must be driven out. You can't break the national law.
Yes, Your Majesty.
The books say that only one scale underneath a dragon's throat is moon-shaped.
But if anyone pulls off a dragon's scale,
that person will die, and the dragon will get angry.
Which dragon is stupid enough to let others touch it? And which person is bold enough to take it?
This liar didn't put any effort into making this scale. I can't believe you fell for it.
Yes, yes, yes! Since that's the case,
please give this back to me.
Since you say that this is a dragon's scale, I'll believe you.
I think it suits me.
How about you give it to me?
No!
My friend is a deity.
He was kind enough to give it to me. If I were to give it to Your Majesty,
that... That would be inappropriate.
Have it back.
Little turtle?
You didn't give me the dragon scale, but I'm not as petty as you.
This is for you.
Thank you, Your Majesty.
Don't you think it's similar to you?
Yes! What?
It's similar to me?
Isn't it?
- Yes. - It is rude not to return a gift.
You didn't give me the dragon scale, but I gave you a small turtle.
Then, you should give me another gift.
What would Your Majesty like?
Actually, it's nothing much.
There's only one thing that I want.
What is it?
Think carefully about it.
You want me to think carefully about it?
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Only this skin under my scale
is my lifetime of hurt and pain.
Stop talking! Stop! You're not my son!
Leave. Hurry and leave!
Your Highness, don't hold it in.
If you need somebody to keep you company, I will stay behind.
If Your Highness wants to be alone, I will leave.
I'm fine.
I just remembered some things from my childhood.
Your Highness remembered all of it?
Only bits and pieces.
They are all timeworn nightmares.
I remember that when I was young,
I lived with my mother in Lake Tai.
I thought that I was a weird-looking carp,
always bullied by the other kids of the water tribe.
You weirdo with horns on your head!
- Hurry and leave. - You weird carp, leave Li Lake!
My father is a dragon, and my mother is an arowana, so how could I be a carp?
One day, I couldn't hold it back anymore.
To my surprise, my revolt
resulted in an endless, bitter consequence.
Mother, no.
No, mother. No!
No, mother!
Li'er, be good. Listen to me. It will be done soon.
- It will be done soon. Behave. - No!
- Listen to me. It will be done soon! - No!
My clothes were stained red by my blood.
Before the previous layer dried, another layer of blood would drip down.
Since I was born,
I was hidden by my mother in the darkest place of the lake.
I lived without seeing the sun.
Do you know what I feared the most back then?
Pulling your scales and breaking your dragon horns?
The darkness?
The loneliness?
It's the cold.
The coldness after losing blood that penetrates you to the bone.
It entered my organs and bone marrow bit by bit.
Do you know how it feels to be cold to the max?
My entire being was filled with sorrow.
All my organs and bones
felt like they were boiling,
blazing,
trying to burn away the last source of heat in my body
and draining the last drop of hot blood in my heart.
When I think back to it now, I would still tremor from the cold.
Stop thinking about it, Your Highness.
It's better to forget about
this sad past.
Kuang Lu, although you are my servant,
you are the beloved daughter of Immortal Taisi.
You grew up in love and adoration.
I, on the other hand...
Am an illegitimate child who was abandoned by his mother and can never be brought out into the open.
Who told you to bring him here?!
Godmother, I was wrong.
I was just worried that you'll do things that you'll regret eventually.
Tell me, are you of one heart with me?
Say it!
Say it! Say it!
My life was saved by you. My magic was taught by you.
Godmother raised and provided for me.
Godmother, stop keeping your problems to yourself. Let me share your worries and solve your problems.
Since you miss Eldest Highness day and night, why didn't you acknowledge him?
It's a past that's unbearable to recall.
Unbearable to recall.
I was originally a princess of the Arowana clan.
Although my clan belonged to the Heavenly Realm, we've resided in Taihu Lake for generations.
You can say that we've lived an extravagant life, was respectable and morally lofty, and stayed safe and sound.
Since little, I'm spoiled by my older brother and father.
I was engaged to be married to the heir apparent of Qiantang River.
During one of Heavenly Empress' birthday,
I followed Royal Father to the Heavenly Realm to attend her birthday banquet
and gifted her some sea pearls.
That time, I was still very young and was lazy to socialize with others.
The wonderful scenery of Heavenly Realm also captured my attention.
I was reluctant to go back and forgot about the time.
I got lost and accidentally entered the Sacred Text Examining Pavilion
and had a chance encounter with an immortal.
He called himself the Night Deity, with an alias of Lord Beichen.
He keeps watch of Heavenly Emperor's Sacred Text Examining Pavilion.
This person is an erudite and very refined.
He and I got along very well.
Afterwards, we agreed to meet at sunset every day.
The times spent with him
were always wonderful but short,
flying by like flowing water.
In a blink of an eye, we've interacted and responded on poems
for more than 10 days already.
To correct something, that thing must first be wrong.
If you insist to turn it by force, you surely will break it.
Calligraphy is like the principles of changes. It's full of reciprocity.
You must pay attention in feeling it.
This is really "Sufferings of the vast sea looks like tears under the moonlight;
Fond memories are like evaporating smoke from blue field of jade being warmed by the sun.
The whole six realm knew that Heavenly Emperor is pursuing the Flower Deity. Never thought that towards you...
Flower Deity will forever be his love knot.
When he was young, just for power,
he abandoned Flower Deity to marry Heavenly Empress.
How then could he bear to let it go?
Many years after, I learned that he seduced me
just because she and I look a bit similar.
What he's looking for in me
was just the shadow of Zi Fen.
Chinese catalpa trees grow from Jiangnan,
brilliantly producing fragrant flowers.
I'm an Arowana and not some plant.
Clever and mischievous.
Red Naga pearls are suddenly streaming down.
After this chance encounter, not separating from now on.
Accompanying Royal Father, I stayed in Heavenly Realm for more than a month.
After visiting the different immortals, it was time to return to Taihu.
On the night before leaving, I went to look for me for I want to say farewell.
But he just completed disappeared like a morning dew.
After asking around, I learned that there isn't any Night Deity then
in Heavenly Realm. And no Lord Beichen
exists.
Can't do anything for the time to return has come.
I followed Royal Father to say our farewell to the Heavenly Empress.
I never thought that
the Spiritual Fire Bead that Heavenly Emperor gifted me
will eventually lead to a great future disaster.
Not long after I returned to Li Pond,
I discovered that I'm pregnant with his child.
I secretly gave birth to Run Yu,
but paper won't be able to contain fire.
Royal Father still found out about it.
Be good...
Royal Father.
Royal Father!
- Royal Father! - Dragon?
My father immediately recognized his birth father.
Only then did I know the true identity of Lord Beichen.
- I guaranteed my Royal Father that I surely will keep the true identity of the child a secret. - Royal Father!
- That I will never bring the tribe any disasters. - Royal Father!
Sinful being! Starting today, - Royal Father!
you are not the princess of the Arowana clan anymore!
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♫ My left hand holds the ground, my right hand holds the sky. ♫
♫ Lightning bolts erupt out of my palm print and go in ten directions. ♫
♫ I quickly turn time into years. ♫
♫ In three thousand lifetimes, I’ve seen it all. ♫
♫ My left hand picks flowers, my right hand wields a sword. ♫
♫ Between my brows, an entire ten thousand years’ of snow has fallen. ♫
♫ One teardrop. ♫
♫ That is who I am. ♫
♫ My left-hand’s finger touches the moon, my right hand is selecting Red Threads ♫
♫ to bestow upon you and I our desired and predestined love. ♫
♫ In the moonlight. ♫
♫ You and I. ♫
♫ My left hand transforms into feathers, my right hand becomes scales. ♫
♫ Some of my lives are spent in the clouds, some are in the forests. ♫
♫ I’m willing to follow you and become a speck of dust ♫
♫ in order to emerge in this mortal life. ♫
♫ My left hands picks you up, my right hand lets go of you. ♫
♫ When I clasp my palms together, you are completely drawn back into my heart. ♫
♫ In the time it takes for one incense stick to burn. ♫
♫ You and I, we become inseparable. ♫